One of the things I am dealing with is a little bit of fear. What if I can't do the things I used to be able to? What if I am too worried to try things?
Well, I hate fear, so I am introducing ICDI Days (I Can Do It).
As you can imagine, ICDI days are days that I prove to myself that I can do it, and thus break through that barrier of fear. For example, last Friday, I thought to myself, "self, lets go to the beach for the day!" The beach is about a 1.5 hour drive (which would be the longest drive since my surgery in June), it's an all-outdoor day, public bathrooms only, I have to plan for it (not my strength) and it's going somewhere that I haven't been in a long time. Oh, and I went all by myself (what a big boy!). Check out some photos before I go on.
It ended up being an amazing day. Not only did I have a blast, and was it fun and beautiful, but it also helped me to build my confidence in my abilities to get out there and do stuff again. I survived in the wild!
So what's next on my ICDI list? Today (8/14) I am going to go reactivate my gym membership. Friday, hopefully, I am going to go on a hike near Mt Hood. Future plans include going camping, and then a big trip in September when I drive to Banff from Portland with a few day stop in Glacier National Park. More to come on that one. But I will continue to look for ICDI opportunities.
I realized how important this is to me. It's very easy to live in fear of not being able to do things. But for me, if I do that, the bad stuff wins, and I refuse to let that happen. I am very lucky that my ICDI days can include beach, hiking, gym, road trips, etc. But, if I couldn't, I would still look for things that incrementally pushed me forward to do things I like. Even going to a movie, going to a restaurant, taking a short walk in the woods, etc.
So, that's where I am. No health update for a while because I am doing well and not much to update on. Thanks for reading!
Quick ICDI update, did a great hike on 8/18 that was about 7.5 miles called Tom, Dick and Harry Mountain. Amazing views of Mt Hood and the other volcanoes. I definitely pushed myself to do it but I did it! So it was an "I Can Did It" day!
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